Just a few short days ago, I was so excited about NaNoWriMo I could hardly stand to be around myself. All I wanted to do was think about my story. All I wanted to do was talk about my story. I wanted–constantly–to find time to be able to do the necessary research for my story. November 1 just couldn’t get here fast enough!
Now that we’re approximately 10 (or is it 11?) days from November 1, I just feel BLAH about the whole thing. I still think my story has credibility and will hold up–and be worth writing–but as of right this moment, I just don’t care about writing it during the month of November. My excitement has waned and now I wonder if I’ll even bother to participate beyond the scheduled write-ins I’m in charge of.
I don’t know what has brought me to this place of complacency–of just not caring about something that excited me so recently. Nothing has happened. No one has said anything negative. Everyone has been very encouraging and excited. For once, I won’t be writing and participating in NaNo alone. I’ll have a whole community of writers basking in the glow of the challenge to write 50,000 words in 30 days right along with me.
I’m tired. I have sooo much to do and right at this moment, the thought of the energy and time it’s going to take–that is going to consume my life–in the month of November is more discouraging than exciting. How am I ever going to find the time, let alone the energy, to write a story in 30 days when I can’t even find time to grade the essays that MUST be graded?
How am I ever going to find the time–and energy–to write a story in 30 days when I struggle to find time to spend with my family?
And what about those extra three hours we have to add to our work week for Retention and Recruitment purposes? And what about Thanksgiving?!
When I think about writing–again–during my favorite holiday, any excitement I had for NaNo has petered out to NOTHING. Nil. Zip. Nada.
I sure hope the excitement comes back by November 1. Regardless of whether it does or not, I plan on giving NaNo the old college try again this year. I have a good story that deserves to be written. They say that all it takes to write is BUTT IN CHAIR. So I’ll put my butt in the chair and hope for the best!!!!