Writing about writing

Losing My Umph

orangeflowerI LOVE to read, play on my computer, scrapbook, sing, drive, shop, and write–as well as a lot of other things, but these are the main things that I truly LOVE to do.  I’ve even written previously about how writing for me is the same as breathing.  I have to write.  It’s not something I simply want to do or even just something I love to do–I HAVE to do it.  Honestly, if I happened to be stranded on a deserted island, the one thing I would want with me would be paper and pen/pencil.  If I were in a zombie apocalypse, the one thing I would miss even more than chocolate cupcakes would be paper and pen/pencil.  God’s honest truth.  I could even do without reading for a time because eventually, if I had paper and pen/pencil, I could read what I’ve written and that would still be reading at least!  But I could never give up writing.  I would find a way–just as the Marquis de Saad found a way to write despite having every possible writing utensil taken from him, I would find a way to write.

Yes, I love to write THAT MUCH.

But I am finding myself going through a dry spell right now.  Normally I write every single day.  I have gone almost a full week (7 whole days) without writing much of anything.  I haven’t completely stopped writing–that just isn’t possible.  But I have stopped writing every day just for the pure joy of writing.  I haven’t written in my own personal journal in these 7 days nor have I worked on my Memoir.  The weirdest part of it all is that in spite of how very much I love to write–need to write, I have absotively posolutely no desire to write in my journal right now or to work on my Memoir.  I pick up my journal and put my pink or purple pen in my hand (I alternate between pink and purple ink) and….NOTHING.

I have even tried to write “I have nothing to write about…..I have nothing to write about” over and over and over again, but that hasn’t inspired me to write anything else beyond that as it normally does.

I know the drive, the desire, to write for the pure joy of it (especially in my journal) will come back–and it will come back soon.  But my question is this:  does everyone go through a dry spell even when it comes to doing something we truly LOVE to do?

Do all lovers have a dry spell when they aren’t intimate–for a period of time?

Do bunji-jumpers find themselves just too busy to go jumping–for a time?

Do surfers need a break from the waves–sometimes?

And my list goes on and on…..Do we all need a BREAK from doing what we love or from being with the people we love?  I don’t think I’m the only one….am I?

And why is such a break necessary?  For you see, I don’t see this dry spell I’m going through as a permanent thing; I know at any moment I will pick up my pink or purple pen and write until I can’t write anymore simply because I can no longer feel my fingers.  I don’t know when, but I know it will come back to me–soon (eventually).

creativedryspellI don’t feel upset that I’m not writing so much right now–even though writing for me is the same as breathing.  I am okay with the fact that I have gone a full 7 days now without writing anything in my personal journal.  I’ve still written throughout the last 7 days–just not in my journal or anything really just for fun.  Ok…wait a sec:

1.  I wrote a blog entry in my “To Read or Not to Read” blog because I finished another book.  I’ve actually written two separate entries within the last week.  Neither is as long as my entries normally are, though–which isn’t really a bad thing.

2.  I wrote a blog entry for my “Joy Regardless” blog right at a week ago–and it’s pretty long.

3.  I’m writing this blog entry today.

4.  I’ve graded almost 75 essays within the last week and commented on each and every essay.

5.  I’ve replied to just about every single email I’ve received–and I typically don’t reply with just a yes/no.

So I have written–I just haven’t written in my journal (or worked on my Memoir) which, for me, means a dry spell.

What brings about dry spells even when it comes to things to we love?  Does everyone experience them?  Why do we (I) experience dry spells if we (I) love doing something as much as we (I) do?

(BTW:  note that nowhere in the blog entry do I discuss or ask HOW to end a dry spell.  That’s not the point/focus of this blog entry, ok?!)


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