I am not ashamed of the fact that I have been coloring more these past several weeks than writing. 🙂 I have been writing, just not writing blog posts or other “serious” writing that I need to be doing. I’ll do it. I will get more serious and revise my memoir and write my blogs and other things that I’m working on–soon. Just right now, I’m having a lot of fun coloring!
I want you to know that I have been doing this “adult” coloring for quite awhile now. I have had Johanna Basford’s Enchanted Castle and Secret Garden for about two years now. I did not jump on the adult coloring bandwagon after everyone else; I was one of the ones who never quit coloring–from childhood on! The only difference is that I did buy so-called “adult” coloring books when I found out there was such a thing.
I have always loved to color. I have a large number of Precious Moments coloring books that I have colored in over the years. (No pictures at this time, but I might try to post a few later.) I LOVE Precious Moments, so it has always been a lot of fun for me to color in those coloring books. For one or two of those coloring books, I love them so much, I refused to color in the actual book itself! I made copies of the pages and colored them instead! That also let me color the same picture more than once and use different colors or various types of mediums for coloring!
My most recent favorite medium are glitter gel pens. That’s what I have used on these pages that I have posted here, along with colored pencils. I like the way they blend together. Besides, my glitter gel pens keep running out of ink, so I have to use something else!
Creativity is creativity, though, right? So whether I am writing or coloring, I am, at least, still being creative and that is what, I feel, is most important. I hope that my enjoyment of coloring will carry over into my writing and just make my writing that much better.
Does that make any sense? Julia Cameron can probably explain it better…..
The more I think about procrastinating, the more I understand why I get so frustrated with myself and everyone around me.
Procrastinating puts me in a state of panic:
- Will I finish on time?
- Will what I’m working on be sufficient?
- Is it good enough?
- Do I have everything I need to finish?
- What if something goes wrong?
- What if my computer breaks down?
- What if my finger slips and I accidentally delete everything I just typed?
- What if my cat/dog/child touches my computer and I lose everything I’ve been working on?
- What if my printer runs out of ink?
- What if the website to submit my assignment isn’t working properly or is shut down for maintenance?
- What if I’ve mis-remembered the true due date/time and I am actually too late?
- What if……?!
Inevitably, something always goes wrong. My in-box for school is filled with emails from students desperately pleading, begging me to accept a late assignment that he/she has EMAILED to me rather than submitted to the appropriate assignment link online because it closed just SECONDS before he/she could submit his/her document—even though we worked on the essay IN CLASS and the essay should have been submitted prior to the student even leaving class!!!
Or a student types his/her document in a program that isn’t sustainable by our campus online education system even though all students are told very explicitly the types of documents that are acceptable.
Oh, and don’t forget the whole, “I don’t understand [such-and-such] part of the assignment.” These are the ones who will email me at the last minute, asking his/her question and then get angry because I wasn’t sitting at my computer, anxiously awaiting HIS/HER email at exactly THE MOMENT he/she desperately needed me to answer his/her question.
Why am I saying all these things when I could so easily get in trouble with my school? Because every single thing I am saying is something I have done at one time or another or I myself have procrastinated in grading assignments such that I am emailing students, begging them to understand and to be patient with me as I FINALLY grade the assignment they completed two months ago.
Yes, it frustrates me to no end when my students procrastinate. Absolutely. But it frustrates me even more so when I procrastinate. I TRY not to get angry and act like a bear, but as I’ve already shared with you, that’s exactly what I act like when I procrastinate.
So procrastinating is a sad reality of life. The real question is: am I going to let it get the better of me or am I going to actively pursue ways of overcoming this defect in myself?
I know how I am answering that question…..how about you?
Yes, it’s true. I hate procrastinating, but like so many others, I do it more often than not. I am desperately trying to teach my son the importance of doing his assignments and completing his work in a timely manner rather than putting it off. He actually does quite well with this. The few times he has procrastinated, he has found out, quickly, why procrastinating is so dangerous!
I encourage my students to do a little bit on their assignments every single day rather than putting things off to the last minute. I can always tell when a student works on an essay a little bit every day (well, at least every class day when we do in-class revisions together) versus when they wait until just before the essay is due to even begin writing it. It shows very clearly. Some students pass anyway simply because they already have many of the skills necessary to succeed, but they certainly don’t tend to make As.
When I procrastinate, I become a biddy. I yell at everyone around me. I get overly anxious. I eat everything not nailed down. I’m not just a biddy, I’m a bear–a mean Momma Bear whose cub has been threatened! I don’t like myself when I get like that and I am sure that those around me don’t like me very much then, either. (Be nice, Jimmy!)
I think that we often procrastinate because we simply don’t want to do the thing we’re putting off. Or because we don’t like doing what it is we’re not doing.
But I also find that I don’t do what I need to just because. No reason. Just…Because.
I honestly do enjoy reading my students’ essays/assignments. I became a teacher because I played at teaching when I was just a little tyke. You know how some people have imaginary friends? I had imaginary students–a whole class of them–with names, assigned seats, and everything! I gave out classwork and homework and then I graded them!!! Yes, I did! So it’s not that.
So here I am, writing this blog post instead of grading the essays that I should have graded last week!!! LOL!