I have been wondering why in the world I have been having so much trouble writing my zombie story this NaNoWriMo when it has been something I have been thinking about for more than a year. Plus I honestly do think that there could be a decent story there. So what has been my problem?
I have come to the conclusion that I am having so much trouble because I haven’t finished my memoir that I have been working on. I made a goal, a commitment if you will, to finish it by the end of 2014 and putting it off to work on my zombie story is only giving me Writer’s Block as far as my zombie story is concerned.
It reminds me of when I first read THE LOVELY BONES by Alice Sebold. I always do a little background research when I begin a book by an author I have never read before. One thing I read doing that research on Alice was that while she was writing THE LOVELY BONES, she found that her own voice kept creeping in and attempting to speak for Suzie, the main character. While Suzie’s story differs in many ways from Alice’s, because of the similarity of there being a rape in both stories (yes, Alice was raped while in college), she was having a difficult time telling Suzie’s story instead of her own. So Alice set aside Suzie’s story while she went back and wrote her amazing memoir, LUCKY. Once she finished her own story, she was able to get back to Suzie’s and let Suzie tell it in her own voice.
In other words, like Alice, I am having to get my own story out of my system before I can concentrate on my new story. There have been times when I have been able to work on more than one writing project at a time with little to no trouble. But this time, for various reasons, I simply cannot move forward until I finish my memoir.
Rather than continuing to fight it, I am going to go ahead and go back to my memoir for now. When I am able, I will get back to my zombie story. I know it will be better for it.