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Oh, the irony

Oh, how I have longed for the day to come when I had all the time I wanted to write and write and write with the intention of publishing. That day has finally come. And I am so very excited!!! It’s finally going to happen! All the stories I have already written can now be revised and be published–probably self-published. All the story ideas I’ve had percolating can be written and published because I have the time to write.

Oh, yeah!!!

And the nonfiction writing ideas can finally be put pen to paper–or hand to computer, as the real case will end up being.

I am finally getting the opportunity to live a dream.

And I’m stalled.

* What do I begin with? Revising something I’ve already written? Starting something new? An idea that I’ve started and re-started multiple times? A practice with self-publishing just to practice with self-publishing?

* Every time I sit down to work on a favored project, I find that I struggle while working on the computer. I guess I’m going to have to begin by hand. I am fighting this part of the process because I know that I can type so much faster than I write by hand and it is easier for me to type. Besides, my carpal tunnel and my tendonitis are both acting up significantly, making it very difficult for me to write by hand at all. As a writer, I know the benefits of writing by hand when my gut tells me that I need to write by hand, but I also know that my hand just hurts. I guess I’m just going to have to grin and bear it and/or write in short spurts.

* Do I go ahead and work on getting an agent or do I focus on self-publishing first? I simply cannot decide!!!

* Should I create a daily schedule for myself? A part of me feels like I ought to create a daily schedule but then another part of me thinks that’s just silly. Maybe I should just try it and see how it goes. It can’t hurt to try it.

* I want to go through all the books we brought home my office, but I don’t have anywhere to put them yet, so that’s not a good idea–yet. I just want to play with them! LOL.

I am ready to write and write! I just have so much I want to do and it’s making me feel a little discombobulated and overwhelmed, but I’ll figure it out!

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Lost without my computer

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It’s now been more than two months since my personal computer crashed. In my very being, I had a bad feeling a few weeks before it happened, but I didn’t want to believe it. My computer was only about three years old, after all. I had started backing up items on my computer, but it always took a long time and/or it was just time-consuming in and of itself as an activity.

The sad truth, though, is that my computer did crash and I have been without one for more than two months.

That’s a bit of a lie. I do have one; I have my son’s old computer, but it is slow, clunky, and simply is not the quality computer I had. It is serviceable, but it is frustrating to work with.

Because of my dead computer, I have felt quite lost for the past two months when it comes to writing. I haven’t written blog posts for any of my blogs since my computer crashed. I used to be on my computer all the time to write in my journal and to work on my Memoir, but I haven’t done any of that since the death of my computer.

When I get on my son’s computer, I get incredibly frustrated with how slow it is as well as how easily it loses internet connection.

I could go on and on about my lack of writing and reasons for it. Anyone who has struggled with writer’s block can understand my frustration. But I have never believed in writer’s block. I have to admit that I simply have not been in the mood to write. If I really wanted to write, I would have found a way, regardless of whether or not I have a good computer to work with.

I once had a little argument with a friend about reading. She said that she simply didn’t have time to read what with her kids, job, housework, church stuff, etc., etc., etc. My response to her at the time was one I have heard my whole life and believe whole-heartedly: “We make the time to do things that we really want to do.” If we want to do something bad enough, we will find a way.

The same goes here. If I had wanted to write bad enough, I would have found a way. I feel guilty for not writing for more than two months, but at the same time, I also feel refreshed, rejuvenated, and ready to write “the-great-American-novel.” 😉

I feel as if I should be discouraged or disappointed in myself because of my lack of writing, but I believe that sometimes we have to take a break or we will burn out and end up never getting back to doing what we love. Even things we love doing can become difficult and feel like a chore, especially when we are overwhelmed and have a lot of other things going on.

So here’s to writing more in 2016, good computer or not!

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